As I'm sure you will discover, dissociation is different for everyone. For me, I basically just zone out. I got deep inside my head, I feel like I am almost in a trance and my head feels a million miles away. I become very quiet and am barely able to talk. Kind of feels like everything I do is in slow motion. I lose my feelings, feel dead inside. Sometimes I will feel almost childlike. I CANNOT look the T in the eye. Then again sometimes when I am in this state my T will say something that triggers me and the voice comes out of nowhere and my head snaps around, stares him right in the eye and forcefully responds to whatever he said. This is something that happens out of my control. I will usually gradually come out of it on my own but sometimes my T will work at bringing me back to the present. Sometimes I don't fully come back in session but once I came back like a light switch after he had been trying for some time. It was just like "click" and the lights came on inside my brain again. Anyway, that is what it is like for me. Good luck to you. I know it is difficult. I just learned within the past month that I dissociate. I have always done this but I never knew that is what it was