i think i want a deeper relationship with her, but i dont think thats possible..
maybe thats why i feel so mixed up... because im afraid she's going to reject me and stop talking to me if she finds out how i feel... but i dont even know how i feel currently... just that i like her, we have a lot in common and seem to be able to get along and talk pretty well

my last relationship was a long distance thing for 4 years and she manipulated me and played mind games with me the whole time...

but maybe i dont want a relationship with her and its just that she giving me attention when i dont get much attention from anyone...?

i really like her... i dont wanna lose her, as a friend or more...