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Originally Posted by finding_my_way
was it kind of like a buffer of some type went up around you to slow things down/make things going on around you distant or quiet? not sure if that is what you meant by a vacuum feeling.
i would think that it was the situation that caused it, so it might not happen again.
i have had times where things will happen one time with the right 'mix' of things but then not again or not for a long, long time again.
i have had the experience of when things externally are too much (twice) where it's like an invisible wall goes up to block out everything external for a few seconds. it makes things quiet and is really strange. i don't know internally what was going on in those moments though.
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Yes. That sounds like what I felt. It's very hard to describe with words.
One of the moments was me pushing my DIL out of the NICU and my grand daughter crying. My heart was collapsing. My DIL was crying. I felt both at the same time. I didn't know how to comfort either one of them. I felt torn and stupid. Frozen. I think I remember my counselor calling it a bind. Maybe? I don't know.
It's been just so much. I can't sort it out.
I'm not in a good place right now and I can't figure out much. It's another bind that I don't know what to do with.
Thank you for sharing that. It does validate what I felt.