You might want to be very careful and cautious about trying to apply others experiences to yourself puzzclar.

I know someone that wondered what PTSD was like,wondered if his physical and mental problems were due to it and talked to someone diagnosed with it about their experiences.He then went to a physician and psychiatrist and repeated what he had heard,applying the symptoms and experiences to himself.It didn't go well for him,the experiences and symptoms were that of a veteran from the Vietnam war and it was obvious this person in their 20's wasn't experiencing the same things,especially claiming exposure to agent orange.

He wasn't diagnosed with PTSD of course but he did spend some time in the hospital.The vets description of his flasbacks,becoming violent,re-enacting the war,etc.made this person seem like he was experiencing psychosis and that he was a danger to others when he told them as his own experiences.

I know that sounds extreme,and even silly,but it really happened,and it's just proof that trying to use others experiences to describe or understand what's going on with yourself doesn't work.

I have PTSD and dissociation is part of it.I could tell you what I have experienced but what good would it do? It's not your experience,only mine.Only you know what you're experiencing and what you're feeling and you have to find words to describe it to your treatment provider in order to get proper help.