So this is getting off-topic, but as I've said many many times, I don't have anywhere else to talk about it.

I've been looking at two online music apps. Noteflight is where I originally started that song, it's got regular notation, but you need a subscription to record instruments directly. Although the other app also needs a subscription for good functionality. It's Soundtrap, and it's got a different idea. They say it's loop-based, but you can enter notes, too, except it's not shown as classical notation. Anyway, I'm way more used to classical notation, but I keep thinking that... maybe I'm wrong. Although what does it even mean?

Also, it's more affordable than some things, but it's kind of limited and somewhat clumsy... Whatever. It's the best thing I can figure out with my googling abilities.

So that song (without words), I'm kind of stuck. I based it on a TV-show I watched, but now for some reason I can't feel the emotions it evoked in me. I got through several "verses" (so to say), and can't figure out where to go. I thought I'd work on something else but it's kind of stuck in my head. Anyway, here's a link for reference: song I have to subscribe to make the instruments sound good, but the gist should be clear.

The repetition and layering feels good, but I thought I had to change it up. Though the mood of the show is melancholy and the ending is bitter-sweet. But towards the end I start leaning towards triumphant and from there I can't go back to melancholy. And I can't decide if the abrupt change is good and where I go from there. At the same time I can't end with just repeating the intro theme several times.

I'm trying not to feel unproductive about just staring at it and procrastinating. I guess if nothing else I could rewatch the show (it's just 1 season).

Again, speaking of collaboration. I think music composition is generally perceived as a solitary pursuit, but... even there I feel a need at least to bounce ideas.