Sometimes I feel like I can be deceitful to myself, like my "mind A" is determined to make me believe that I'm a terrible person not worthy of love and relationships/friendships or happiness of any sort, and my "mind B" knows I'm a good person and is struggling to work through whatever mental issue(s) I have, but "mind A" tries to confuse me about what symptoms I have so that I can't reach a diagnosis and get better. Is this normal? If not what could be wrong with me? Is this something that could get me sent to a psychiatric hospital? I want help, but I don't want to say something crazy and end up institutionalized.