what could be going on?

well, one thing is recovery. Don't compare now with "before depression" you too quickly... factor in depression you. It takes a long time to recover from these things, even if our mood makes us "feel better." My stomach feels better, but i cant eat spicy food and my appetite is low... what could be happening?

it's just an example doll... you know i adore you.

it might be the case that "you" take a lot longer to come back because "you" are more than biochemicals, but our moods are mostly such. It might also mean you'll have to work at it, rebuild you from the ground up. A lot of people don't consider this... not saying you specifically, but we tend to think depression is some kind of closet we step in and out of... but it really isn't. Meds often give us our mood back and then we have to work at the rest.

OTOH, sometimes it is a med thing.. i hope not, or at least i hope it's a situation in which you can still rebuild yourself. i do know i took one med a couple of years ago. My mood came back up and even better, the anxiety diminished. Yay right? Not. The anxiety diminished partially because i simply didn't give a %#@&#! about anything. i felt great, but to hell with everything else. No guilt, no regret, no nothing. Some of that would have been cool... but having no conscience whatsoever was less than cool