i must say, Trace, that normally i do not read one-person threads.... BUT
i can really relate to what you are saying, and i vote for AVOIDANCE. i too cry when i have to talk about some of the things that have happened to me. otherwise, i just panic and freeze when confronted with similar situations.

i'm too old, and have worked too hard on things that really matter to me, to spend my time in Prolonged Exposure. i hope you are young enough to really benefit from all that suffering~
best wishes~