As of now, I absolutely refuse to start any sort of medication; partly because I want to avoid any side-effects (thanks to my mom conditioning me about that), partly because "I can do this on my own". And partly because, if I end up stabilizing, maybe I won't feel like, me, anymore. Not that there's really a good sense of that to begin with, but I'm sure everyone has that moment when they're scared to shake off the habitual.

I'm just sticking with DBT for now and seeing how well I can regulate myself with just that. Though I could at least try herbal teas or something, I'll try and remember to look into that later.