I'm sure some of those options exist here, but I'm in Russia, and it's on me that it would be harder for people on an American site to approach my problems, but at the same time I don't feel quite at home in my own country... Anyway, it's not my mom's business, she's (was) just a salesperson, but based on her descriptions it was in a long process of sinking, and I don't expect a recovery.

Foodwise, I don't think we're going to have that much trouble if we're careful (my mom still has social security, so we're not on just my modest salary), although my mom has been in the process of dealing with dental problems and dentists, and I don't know how that's going to go.

I do live with my mom, and I used to feel extremely ashamed, and at the same time I think it might traditionally be more common in Russia, however there's no denying that I'm just helpless, besides having little money... What am I talking about? At this stage it would be monstrous to move out, even if I could.

Thanks for the song advice. Yeah, my prevailing emotion right now is anxiety which is really at odds with the mood of the song. Quite honestly, I'm looking around searching for a place where I could connect with like-minded people, and not finding one (aside from this thread), and I'm afraid of going back to the place of hopelessness and loneliness. And I don't mean that people wouldn't want to connect, it's me who doesn't know how to.