uhmm .. i dunno.. i dont remember... i thought i slept.. but maybe someone else got up in my body...
im really tired...

i talked to her today... told her bout this stuff and im embarrassed really...
told her that i think im idolizing her and im really attracted to her right now you know..
because she has been really nice to me... but i know i genuinely care for her and like her too because we have a lot in common...

she said if she was looking for a relationship she would go with me... but she not looking for a relationship right now.. she just wants friends..
does that mean that some day our friendship can grow...? i just wanna be close to her right now, like NOW, you know?
its a feeling, desire, its burning... hurting.. i cant take it...