Quote:
Originally Posted by Flutterby11
Medication doesnt work and i kind of dont feel like i need it anyway i know i have been dealing with a lot but it is all real stuff and all real concerns how is medication going to help get rid of something that is real. besides pdoc doesnt understand me at all they dont get it plus how can i ever truly be free while on medication. i cant and i also think that maybe i am not sick at all and what if everyone is just trying to control me and they are using medications as a way to do that. i need to be free and i cant do that unless i am med free.
|
I felt EXACTLY the same way three years ago. That my husband and everyone else was just using medication to control me and that they all just couldn't handle the real me.
I was manic and ended up a psychotic mess a few weeks later. I believed that people could read my mind and would hurt me once they figured out what a terrible person I was. It was terrifying.
I get where you're coming from. And ultimately it is your decision. But what you have been posting recently is concerning. They are not the writings of s well person.
I hope you find peace, whatever you choose to do.