At the risk of getting bashed for this I'd like to say I've gone through maybe a dozen therapists to get to one who is really helpful to me every time I see her. I got lucky. I picked a number of therapists that my insurance covered and just started calling. She answered the phone.

I am so very sorry about what your husband said. That was cruel and not helpful. I am in no way advocating this action but I was married for 20 years and during this time I was diagnosed. My husband didn't believe in mental illness and became verbally and emotionally abusive to the point that I divorced him. I felt like I had no choice for reasons of sanity.

You are worthy. Keep holding on. You're not alone. I'm here if you need to talk.