Oh dearie......((((((((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))). I'm 30 and currently living with mom for finantial reasons. You wanna write me, feel free. I totally get it. Mom is also disociative (like me) possible MPD (like me), and has borderline tendancies. We go from me being the kid, her the parent... to her being the kid and me the parent. Rarely if ever are we both adults at the same time. Rarely am i allowed to be an adult, have personal space, or have any peace of mind. I also have to hide SI from her. Every now and again she'll start in on it with "you don't still DO that do you?!!?" And i lie to her. SHe never asks why i wear long sleeves all the time and either pants or long skirts. Often she is the reason behind SI - which you may understand totally, too. I'm not even allowed to close my room door because "I might be suicidal" aka leaving her. The times i've been suicidal she never knew about it. I always feel trapped here and am always working to escape/get out.
You didn't say if this is just for the holidays or for a while, but if you need to rant, vent, or commiserate, you can always write me on here.
Kiya