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Originally Posted by Crypts_Of_The_Mind
Why be sorry?
And just so you know they almost always turn down applicants the first and sometimes second time they apply for disability. Its their way of weeding out who needs it vs who just wants to play the system. Once you get turned down go to a lawyer that only accepts payment if they win the case. That way you have better odds. You will get any backpay owed you from the first time you applied as long as you reapply before the time to do so expires - but try to hire the lawyer before you apply if you can.
I can understand why you wish for death - but just because life is stressful and hard at the moment, doesn't mean it will always be that way. Positive thinking is good, but it's too hard right now - so all I'm asking you to do is consider this possibility...
What if you ended your life and then were given a look into what your future might have been. You saw a lot of days of misery...but you also saw days of pure joy and excitement and fun. Would you regret depriving yourself of those moments that could have been? Don't you think you've earned the reward of any drop of happiness you can have? Why take that from yourself?
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I get what you're saying but believe me when I say that the 'bad days/moments' haven't quit running a train on my life since I was so young that I can't remember. I don't know what it is to live without depression, along with many other things. Yeah, there have been good moments, some were downright euphoric; but the pain, even in the best moments, never stops. Hallucinations, flashbacks, intrusive memories and SI; they've been apart of my life every single day for so damn long now. I'm ready to punch my time sheet. I'm just waiting for the "bad news" to add the icing onto this miserable cake.