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Originally Posted by Só leigheas
I get what you're saying but believe me when I say that the 'bad days/moments' haven't quit running a train on my life since I was so young that I can't remember. I don't know what it is to live without depression, along with many other things. Yeah, there have been good moments, some were downright euphoric; but the pain, even in the best moments, never stops. Hallucinations, flashbacks, intrusive memories and SI; they've been apart of my life every single day for so damn long now. I'm ready to punch my time sheet. I'm just waiting for the "bad news" to add the icing onto this miserable cake.
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I remember that pain... Went from the time I was 12 til I was 40. As you can see I still revisit it sometimes but now thats all it is - a visitation. I go months with happiness (stress too of course, life always has that) now whereas before all I saw was darkness and pain. What if you too get to this place at some point - but you robbed yourself of it too soon? Why not strive for the possibility of that reward?