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Originally Posted by Só leigheas
Last time, I felt a piece of me die and fall away. If I fight it this time, I'll lose another piece. I'll lose another piece because, like last time, it's not my life I care about. It's everyone elses. I've said it a few times on here but I'll say it once more; I truly and unequivocally hate myself. Everything I do, I do for others, and it's made me even more miserable. Maybe I deserve it, I probably do. This punishment is mine and it's tearing me apart.
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It's because you are doing as I used to do viewing yourself as and allowing yourself to be - a stepping stone for others. It's as if you are there to help them and then they move on ... you get dealt more misery.. someone else comes along that has similar issues to what you just experienced...you help them, they move on...rinse and repeat...right?
I thought that process could never change - and should never change, bc like you, I figured it was just something I was meant to do for whatever reason. But I was wrong. It can change ... if you want it to and are willing to work toward it.