Just getting out of bed and into the day is tough. And there is no one and nowhere to turn in this "mental health" thing. I don't know - is it the mental health treatment mechanism? Do they ever help or do they just try to perpetuate themselves? When I used to drink alcohol it fixed everything. Just a couple of sips and I felt safe again. Into the arms of numbness. But I stopped and I'm glad I did, except for missing that feeling. Family and fridns? Yes, I think that that is what I am missing. I tend to isolate much. At least I believe that these people give a crap. So when I am hanging out with them, I can feel a bit better (less anxious). Maybe it's a trust thing. Do YOU trust your therapist? Psychiatrist? I hope you can. All I know is that anxiety is a killer. But first it will torture. Like right now. Feel like dying and getting onto the next thing.....