It's true this is what I experience. It is the reason for my existence. Only few have stayed around. Really, only one now that I think about it. My fiance. It's weird that he won't leave. He must see something I don't.

This position I'm in, I deserve to be here. I deserve every bad thing that happens to me. And I cannot tell you why. I have nothing other than emotion behind this verdict. Hang the jury and let the judge lay down their gavel, because I plead guilty before the charges have been read.