Sorry, for the confusion. I am new to the whole dissociation thing. My T says I am fragmented. I occasionally hear voices and I occasionally feel childlike when dissociating. I am always aware though so I guess you would call this co-conscious. So far I am aware of Mean Voice who I think of as male, he has controlled my thoughts for longer than I can remember but after really pissing me off a little over a week ago has mostly disappeared except for this weekend when I have been consumed by dark thoughts. Glinda is named after the good witch in the Wizard of Oz, she is my Helper Voice. Little Me who is basically me around 10 or 11. She seems to be the one that is out most of the time when I am home alone and doesn't want to do adult self care stuff, then then there is Little Girl. She is around 6 and she took the worst physical abuse.

Maybe I am just in denial, but I can't stop thinking that this is all just in my head and I am making it all up. I am having a really hard time accepting this whole concept. How do you know if you are just crazy and making stuff up or if all of this is real? I plan on talking to my T again this week about it. He knows I am confused as hell. At first he said I was DID, when I said I don't have that he was like OK well there is a spectrum and you are more fragmented. Then when I told him last week that I choose to believe it is all just in my head, LOL, just my thoughts and not actually voices he agreed with that too saying everyone has parts of them that have different personalities per say. I am a bit pissed at him for always just agreeing with whatever I say. I plan on telling him that I wish he would just tell me what he really thinks and not just agree with me because obviously one of these statements if false either it is just my thoughts or not and I have lost trust in him for his comments of agreement. He does not know the full extent of what I listed above. I had mentioned the Little Girl but not really discussed her or my differentiation between the two Littles.

Any ideas?