Hm, you just reminded me of a feeling I used to have I don't remember when the last tme was I felt it, most likely quite recently, but I remember I would be at home, and my parents were being mean, or even cruel to me, and I would convince myself I just had to wait a few more hours, and I would be able to "go home" as if it was a bad day at school, or something, I would have to remind myself over and over that I am "home" and there's nowhere left to go...
Wow. That was really weird...

But yeah, I can relate to the feeling of things not being...real. Have you ever disassociated?

Best of luck to you,
<3 Bella