Thank you all for your kind words. You all made me feel better. I'm on new meds i started yesterday. I upped and quit the last one and just went really down to a bad spot for the past few weeks. Last week at my t appt she kinda got through to me, through this thick head of mine. And from later that day i made the decision that i really do want to quit. I joined the aa online meeting site with encouragemnt from my pdoc. I havent gone to the meetings yet, but did look around the forums some. And i'm going to start reading zen recovery tonite.

I made a choice today and kinda pissed off my boyfriend. But, oh well. He had gotten tickets for the saints game tomorrow and wanted me to go. I probably would have gone, but the thing is, at 10am him and the guys are all meeting up at a local bar and starting the partying then. The game dont start to 3pm. I told him i didnt want to go to the bar and he told me, well just drink sprite or something. For 5 hours he wants me to watch them all drink and get buzzed, then go to the game and watch them drink more, then go to a bar after and drink even more. I just told him you go and have fun. Instead, i'm going to take my nephew up to the flea market so he can get his poppy and dd their christmas presents. We'll walk a little on Decatur by the shops there. I wont have much temptation to drink in that area, only thing around there is Jimmy's Margaritaville. And we dont have to take that corner. Tres' is looking forward to eating at Johnnys and getting his fried mussels. So if he has fun and enjoys himself, it'll make me feel better.

And i made it another day.

Hugs to you all, Depressme, Mel, Rayna, Cyrano, Blue and Split. ((((((((all of you))))))))))