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Originally Posted by TrailRunner14
I would like to sort this out, and see if it makes sense to anyone who is hyper triggery. I don't know if that's a term or not, it's just what came to mind.
**** It could be triggering if you are easily triggered. Hope that makes sense.
I do get triggered quite easily, and don’t realize it until after the fact. I believe that’s what happened last night at the hospital. Looking back on it, it feels like there were several “parts” of me being triggered at one time and it was more than I could sort out. The result was basically an “internal flip out” like a whirl that I couldn’t stop. What I felt physically was this weird vacuum feeling. I was “there”, but it felt like I was gray (?)/quiet (?) So much was going on internally that I couldn’t think. I couldn’t even figure out what the thoughts were. I can’t come up with the words to describe what I’m trying to explain.
I was going to go through and list the triggers, but I’m feeling a bit “off” thinking about walking through them again.
This probably makes no sense. I do know it’s very disturbing to me and I so want to figure out what to do, to prevent the multi hijacking that happened last night.
Does this sound like something that anyone else has experienced?
How do you foresee it? How do you prevent it?
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Hi Trail...congrats on the Grandma thing. As long little one experience and feels the family love...I would think she would be all right, like totally opposite that we've received: we know better.
We are very prone to dissociation, very triggery as you put it and I do too. People, places, and things trigger us. Even memories and thoughts. Sometimes we go through a rolodex thing trying to find an alter to best handle the situation. Here at work, when I pick ip this phone, the carpenter backs up as I come up till he gets irritated and want to get back too work. All he talks about is work, but if a person steps up...we can't work and talk at the same time.
In another post I described our revolving door switching in AA meetings- leaves us mentally exhausted till we sleep later.
Finding out more about how my system works has always helped me so now I know what to expect...to try to win through it even if I have a lack of control.
Hang in there...it sounds like you are figuring it out.
