I do.
A lot lately.

I know logically, that's not truth...but somehow most times, that thought keeps me quiet. Doesn't matter what problem or reason for celebration I may have. Once that thought comes... I go quiet.

Then I spend a few minutes, maybe an hour or so dwelling on "why doesn't anyone care about me?" Usually decide on one or two non-sensical reasons. Then a bit later - I think "what was I thinking? People care - but I don't allow them the chance to respond"

Sometimes I forget to remind myself people get busy at times, or may be considering how to respond, or may have gotten distracted. There are of course times people are selfish and would rather "not be bothered", but I think mostly, people care...just that I want to see or hear it immediately, and not wait.

Generally that happens to me when I am going through high anxiety or high depression. It's hard for me to open up during those times - so when I do, every second it takes to get a response increases the amount of invalidation I feel.

I wonder if there is a way to incorporate what I know logically into the things I think when I am in a high state of depression or anxiety. Maybe that would help me most if I could bridge that gap...