Yes, at least for me, to be pressured to find positive thoughts when you need so much more than that, can be maddening.

I hope you and your pdoc can find ways to avoid IP. A change in meds, for example. Be kind to yourself, remember that not every solution is going to work (i.e. positive thoughts), but that's okay and doesn't mean you haven't exhausted every healthy alternative. I hope this works out for the better!