I love my T because she is the one person in my life right now that I feel really cares about me and wants to help me. The only times I've been upset with her are because I was being triggered by something else, it was never actually what she did.
I loved my old T too because I wouldn't have survived grad school without her but my current T has a plan for helping me and works hard at it. I feel like we are team in trying to help me work through my issues. She will also slightly adjust her boundaries if she thinks it would be helpful (i.e. encouraging me to email throughout the week since I sometimes don't say as much in session). Also, she tries to push me just enough to help me make progress but would stop in a heartbeat if I ever said it was too much. For me, when people push me, it shows me that they really care. Because pushing someone takes effort and it's a risk so most wouldn't do it unless they cared enough to put in the effort and take that risk.
I'm also super attached to my T so it is impossible for me not to feel like I don't love her.
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