I go back and forth with denial. No doubt. Right now I have no question I have this going on with me, but that's just not always the case. Oddly enough, or maybe not, when things go smooth for me it's easy to dismiss it as all in my head. When I get time chunks and, oh, large sums of money just gone, it's way harder for me to deny it. I also have pretty decent co con within my group of us (we are a a system that is kinda groups of separate groups) so it's easy for me to wonder when time seems to run smooth and steady and even when I'm half gone, I still know what happened a lot of the time. It can be helpful to have a decent grasp on time and what you are doing, but it doesn't help me much where denial is concerned. I forget now and then how much of life I forget. Heh. But then I get a reality check and yeah... anyhoo... yep. I do wonder sometimes if I am making it up. It's a hard thing to wrap your head around and then some. Wishing you well in this.

-V