Dear T (not art T).
This did not go well today. i know it wasn't your intention. But I feel now like I'm to blame for the things that happened or didn't happen between me and my partner. Guilt and shame. Like there's something wrong with me. There's something wrong with me having needs and desires and expressing them. Fundamentally so. I gueess I'm in emotional flashback mode. But that doesn't make it any easier.
I hope I'll be more in the here and now tomorrow. If not, I might need your help to get out of this downward spiral. Trouble is, in my perception you are the one who caused it. Not good.

in despair,
c_r