I'm nearing the end of my engineering bachelor's degree ( about a month left) and I'm terrified. I've noticed over the years that I perform comparatively(not that I'm super smart with their absence or anything) better when less people r around me. If I know that there's smart people around, forget about it. I've been wondering if I want to do something else education wise( although I did take this course with a lot of love for it). I know that i can't solve this problem if i change my diploma degree, and that scares me. Wherever i go, this problem will haunt me. I won't be able to find work, and a whole lot of other stuff, obviously. And all my other peers have done so much or have accomplished something or the other, and then there's me. Anyone have a similar issue or something to do that can help manage this? I looked up to an ngo that rescues snakes, so that i can hopefully learn to control this( whatever "this" is), and mostly because i like snakes but i stopped a long time ago. Lately, I find myself constantly trying to hurt my left hemisphere hoping I'd get smarter "accidentally". That's how scared i am.