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Originally Posted by AlwaysChanging2
Hi Trail...congrats on the Grandma thing. As long little one experience and feels the family love...I would think she would be all right, like totally opposite that we've received: we know better.
We are very prone to dissociation, very triggery as you put it and I do too. People, places, and things trigger us. Even memories and thoughts. Sometimes we go through a rolodex thing trying to find an alter to best handle the situation. Here at work, when I pick ip this phone, the carpenter backs up as I come up till he gets irritated and want to get back too work. All he talks about is work, but if a person steps up...we can't work and talk at the same time.
In another post I described our revolving door switching in AA meetings- leaves us mentally exhausted till we sleep later.
Finding out more about how my system works has always helped me so now I know what to expect...to try to win through it even if I have a lack of control.
Hang in there...it sounds like you are figuring it out.  |
Thank you AC!
I agree that her family can provide the love and attachment that will undo anything that she experiences now, until she is strong enough to leave the NICU. It's more believable in the place I'm in now both emotionally and mentally.
Your "revolving door" description sounds like what I was experiencing last week with everything that was going on. It was kind of like my feet got clipped out from under me and I flipped out. I'm prone to that too. I have no control over it. It seems to cycle around until it's done.
I woke up this morning and the air "felt" different. Things sounded clearer. Colors were more vivid. It's not "gray" and "muffled" like it's been. I really can't explain it. My thoughts are still kind of scrambled though.
Hopefully my counselor can help me sort through this tonight, if I can make sense of it to explain it.
Thank you friend.