What are some tips to deal with my overwhelming desire for human contact that I simply can't get over?

I crave human contact but I can't get over my issues with people to save my life.

I'm struggling with making friends and socializing with people because I'm too caught up in my own little world full of my own problems that I have trouble conversing with other people without sounding like either an idiot or a selfish jerk.

It doesn't help matters that I have poor social skills and can't get past my obsessions with technology and video games. Try talking to me about "normal" people things like sports, clothes, politics, or even small talk and I can't hold my own in a conversation to save my life.

The only reasons why I don't kill myself now are because of the "nerdy" things that I'm passionate about as well as my ambitions of wanting to have my own tech or video game related company that makes video game systems, games, or anything else pertaining to video games or technology.

My nerdy obsessions are my sole purpose for living. Why can't people see that? Everything else, especially people bring me pain. Still though, I need human contact like everybody else.

I wish I was a psychopath so I could go around not being influenced by my stupid feelings and not deal with people or desire companionship at all without being hurt. I hate having feelings.

I'm so freaking lonely and I can't take it anymore.

I hate society and the majority of humanity because they are all living their happy little lives while I'm miserable.

I'm sick of being such a toxic unhappy person.

I hate my life.

I just want people to accept me. I'm sick of being the outsider. Hatred and sorrow writhes within me because I want what I can't have; acceptance.