I hope this is the right place for this. I have recently been charged with selling on branded items I thought were illegal to sell. I was also charged with mail fraud and wire fraud. I feel like I'm losing it. By the end of the day when I go to bed my mind is so tired that I actually fall asleep but I wake up early With the worst case scenario's in my head. I'm so afraid of going to prison because I'm 55 years old. I have two dogs that totally depend on me and I don't know anyone who would take them. I have to prepare for the worst but I can't shut it off in my mind. I have such total regret but I can't forgive myself. My mother passed away four months after they showed up At my house to take everything I had. It has now been three years and I was just charged a month ago. My court date and trial are not until October but My court appointed attorney has not given me any sort of hope. I know I'm a good person and I've donated my time to rescues including thousands of dollars. Right now I'm helping out at a rescue three nights a week and trying to find a job. The problem with The job part is if I get a job pretrial services will then call them and let them know that I've been charged with a crime. How am I supposed to keep a job if that happens? I'm so confused about all of this because I just want a chance to go on with my life and do the right things. I will never fall for the Scam again. I thought I was helping people and I was but I was not doing it the legal way. It wasn't drugs but it was fillers and Botox from China. Don't get me wrong, the quality was top-notch but had I realized it was not legal I never would've done it. It turns out that ignorance is not a defense so none of that matters to the federal government. I want to be forgiven so I can forgive myself. I want to donate my time and heart to the things that matter most to me. I want to go to school To be a veterinarian systems because that's what I do at the rescue and I love it. Please pray for me