Hi Everyone, so I made it another year, amazing.

Still IP after a month. Didn't think it would take this long but it has been tough. Many times I have come close to harming myself and so far am still here. Thankful, although depressed. Going to my parents to see my parents, sister and four nieces and nephews this morning then dinner tonight. Should be a good day even if I don't feel the best.

Seem to be slowly improving with ups and downs. Maybe I will get discharged Sat after my friends funeral on Friday. Trying to be hopeful and positive. Today, of all days, I plan to have some fun. I'm going to try.