For me, as long as I could say that I would stay safe until the next session, ts and pdocs did not want to send me to the hospital. And I struggled for a long time with those kind of feelings, plans etc. Still go there, sometimes.

If you are comfortable sharing your date with your t, I would do that. And then I would ask for extra sessions.

The attention seeking thing-I think lots of people are afraid they will seem that way. A decent t would just work with you until you saw that was what you were doing if that were the case. Don't let that fear keep you from saying what you are feeling and thinking.