@Bill3 My own thoughts is my evidence. I asked her for 3 months, even with her saying she would like to in person and on text meet up, but then I ask her if we are ever going to meet up? and that I been asking since Jan and it's always no when she kept agreeing and I asked her if I am wanting more out of this friendship then she does? and that i'm sorry if it seems like i'm acting rude, i'm not trying to come off that way. She came back that I wasn't rude and that she does want to meet up but she's so busy. She has other people she used to work with she wants to meet up with, I've told her I've been trying to get them to try and meet up with you and that you wanna meet with them. When we did meet up for a coffee she said maybe she should try harder at hanging around friends more, and in the past she has said she's worked on herself for years and wants to start doing that less and hang around friends more often then she does.

Then a week after those texts I get a text saying we should meet up, I found that strange...why now? because that text I sent her? was it because she wanted to meet up or felt guilty and ignored something she had to do that was a bigger priority? I also been doing a bunch of research on friendship and kept reading that if you meant anything to a friend they would make time for you because you were important to them. I started sinking deeper and deeper into feeling of worthlessness and trying harder and harder at trying to be her friend, even if I never got time to be around her. As time flew by more and more she rarely text me because she wanted to, mostly because I wanted to keep staying in touch with her even if our text conversations were boring as hell.

She gave me her phone number beginning of Jan, she told me to call her whenever I wanted but...she never once has called me because she wanted to. She's also part of the reason I broke down back in August and she asked if she was also part of why I broke down after she walked with me to the beach after the doctors appointment telling him I was suicidal...she quit in July, so did another guy I was buddies with at work a month later, and another buddy recently quit. People are leaving me and I got huge abandonment issues because my mother left when I was 1 and I still feel like even at 32 i'm going to have nobody...no friends, no family, nobody! If your own mother does not even want you then you really don't deserve anyone.

Sorry it just kept going on and on and on.