@Rose76

Maybe not but she may understand? I've tried leaving in the past but she kept trying to stay and hates when I try and leave for a long time, like when she was busy I told her i'll message her in a few weeks when she's less busy and she did not like that idea, but she tells me to text or phone her anytime I want. I know i'm emotionally messed up, which is probably why it's the best I leave for a long while and forget about other people for a while and just work on myself only as selfish as that sounds. I recently came back from 5 weeks off work due to being picked up by the cops and brought to the hospital where I was put on suicide watch. I just can't control my thoughts anymore, they are always so poisonous! Sometimes leave me screaming or hitting my head on walls, or drinking myself silly. Therapist and psychiatrist think i'm fine and should only come once a month because I act fine, but I feel insane...