TishaBuy, why not read some books or information on how to best use therapy? Therapy can be great, if you find the right person and understand how therapy is supposed to work--otherwise it can be a real mystery. I found this very helpful:
https://www.psychologytoday.com/blog...-psychotherapy
A book called "The Gift of Therapy" also helped me see it from the therapist's perspective.
It may be that you just haven't found the right therapist (I have had a couple that didn't work for me). But it also may be that you are bailing on relationships before they have a chance to get deeper, and if so that might be something going on in your outside life as well. If so, working through that in therapy might be a real life-changing experience.