I was not sure where to post this, but I guess the BPD forum is the best fit.

I've realised (or suspect) that even though I talk about emotions a lot, and it looks like I'm so in touch with them, but the truth is I have no idea what I'm talking about most of the time.
I'm obsessed with emotions because I feel them so strongly, I'm all emotions, but I've never been taught to really recognise them, to talk about them.
So all my obsession with psychology, with emotions is just a desperate attempt to get somewhere, to some understanding which I'll never have.
There is this abyss between all these strong emotions I feel and the understanding of them and I'll never have a real bridge there.