im sorry... see, im fighting myself... i dont know what to believe... i cant help it, its really really out of my control... i dont know what it is... i hate this.... i cant handle much more of this... :'(

it couldnt of been me... but logicaly i know it has to been right...
why do i have to be so confused... the cognitive dissonance is making me lose my mind... i cant handle much more really...

This is ridiculous, I'm so embarrassed.. But whatever, I'm not gonna fight it.