Oh boy!! Can anyone even decode this mess; lolol.

Thanks ((((((((Silver))))))))).

Not sure what I all said last night but I am really sorry for going in there when I was drunk. I was okay then it just hit me so fast. Sad part is I only had 3 drinks. Did not take long after for me to pass out. Good thing is I slept well. Headache still here but could be from the vodka. I can't imagine I sounded like Justy last night and if I did say anything offensive or upsetting, please accept my apologies.

This plan running through my brain is just bonkers. What am I thinking?? But I can't help but think and feel this way. Not sure what my next step is...... who to talk to about this. Suicide is not the way to go. But seems so right at times.

Anyway, I am okay today. Feel a little "blue" but to be expected. No more alcohol for me thats for sure. Thanks for talking to me last night in chat. Kind of a strange night hey. Can remember most of it up until the last while; lolol.

Justy