I think I still have borderline, I just think its a fruit basket..

I'm also thinking about deleting this account because I'm really embarrassed by the things that are being posted or want to be posted but deleted..

I am very unstable, I just experienced a re-lived trauma type thing, I dont know what to call it but it broke the continuity I built inpatient..

I already called my people and going to discuss deleting this account with my therapist on the 3rd...

I'm really sorry for the nonsense.
I'm tired of it as well.. Fighting off Suicidal Ideations is not fun.. Watching yourself cut is disturbing to say the least.. Feeling so disconected all the time is wrong, something is very very wrong and I just can't take it anymore.

im scared you know... something is wrong with me... im broken... hurting... trapped...

But I'm going to fix everything.. It's time to end the madness and find some resolution in life. Find a way to be happy.
Please forgive me, I'm stepping away from the computer for a while and going to try to quell the internal distress..

Sigh