Be gentle with yourself. I was in AA for 5 years. And to celebrate, I drank. I still don't really drink except for an occasional martini on the weekend. But I never really believed alcohol was my core problem. The right blend of meds usually helps keep me healthy and not self-destructive.

What I think about AA is it has saved many people, but it is also very strict. I have found that I can manage better with prayer and meds. I still believe in the higher power part of the program, but I just didn't like the martyrdom that goes on at meetings. But be gentle with yourself. So you had some wine today. Doesn't mean you have to tomorrow. If you are 90% sober most of your life, isn't that good enough for today? Start again tomorrow?