Thanks all for the inputs. Yes, my father, I strongly believe, is the reason why I am not sociable. Once he told me why you don't socialize while abroad since he is not there!! He thinks I would be sociable if he is not around me. He doesn't know that he instilled in me the fears; the automatic way of thinking to avoid people and get anxious. It is all subconscious.

I cannot set proper boundaries with my father, because there is only one way of living, which is his. As long as I conform to his wishes, then I am a good child. Otherwise, I am "destroying his life"!!! He pretends that I have the choice that he respects, but he only respects the decisions I make in accordance to his ways.

I have been in clashes with my parents since I returned. They want me to follow a road they draw for me, like a sheep. I must not question it or want to follow it.