I had a complete breakdown about three years ago and was off sick from work because of it. Both my therapist and my psychiatrist insisted that I should stay away from the office for a while. I struggled immensely, because I identified strongly with my job. But there was no way I could have continued to work or get through a normal work day. But at the same time I struggled with feeling "useless" or a "failure".

In the end I was off sick for over 12 months. Luckily the sick pay in my country was ok so I didn't face any financial difficulties because of this and I didn't lose my job either.

I ended up doing an intensive inpatient programm for depression and emotional over-regulation for about three months, and even though I didn't want to in the beginning I learnt a lot while I was there, still benefiting from it.

do you have a T or a psychiatrist you could talk to and ask for advice?