My mom is the person i most love and hate at the same time. She is the one who has hurt me but also helped me the most. Now its been a while since i restarted building up and emotional wall between us and i can see and feel that this is hurting both me and her a lot. But i cant and dont want to forgive her. And this makes me feel SO guilty. I really would like to at least tear the wall down though. But how can i do it? I cant control my feelings and thoughts. Can i?