Thank you everyone for your answers. I see a psychologist and he knows a little about this but I haven't told him everything, maybe because I'm ashamed to let him know exactly how bad I'm doing and I'm scared he'll think I'm just lazy. I told him once that I didn't go to work when I had to and he said I had to do it even if it's hard because I was sabotaging myself and not helping me. He doesn't seem to understand that I just can't!

I have the same problem too hopeless2015, when I don't go for a while and then have to go back, my anxiety is even worse and I end up not being able to sleep at all the night before.

I live in France growlycat, thank you for the advice. I know I could try to see a psychiatrist or any doctor but I'm just scared they won't believe me.

Little cat, to be honest right now I don't think I have a dream of any kind. I just wanna feel better some day.