Thank you all people.

Nowhere, you are speaking pure wisdom, but you know how sometimes we become wisdom-proof. This must be one of those times.

Kebs, stay assured nothing will happen here. I'll just stand and take all the blows. Although rationally I consider my existence no big deal at all, I'm bound to stay here.
For me it is more scary the END of the year. I must be still in the phase when you believe you can do better in the next year. Also dreadful is the atmosphere of pause and suspension. Energies unused quickly convert into anguish. Moreover we interrupt our daily routine, and unstructured time is dangerous as well.

Thank you cyran0 for your sympathy. The ocean is just a pool as feelings are fast as light. You see, I only write gloomy poetry, so I wish I had never inspiration. Anyway, thanks for appreciating.