I'm actually the least grown up in there. I think I meant IRL. To just be honest and real. Spontaeous and childlike. And stuff I can't talk about here...And feeling cared for. And live life as there is still all that potential you get to hope for when you are a kid.
But my non-grown up self is angry in therapy that she is excpected to not show up. Or at least how she feels. So I'm getting angry at T a lot and play the sulky child routine.