Thank you so much. I'm making plans for my dogs because they are more important than me right now. Their happiness means more to me than mine and that is the truth. I have to do what's right for them. I am seeing a therapist once a week and she knows my whole story. It's nice to have something to talk to you I just wish I didn't cry the entire time. I will be going to see a doctor and asking for an anti-anxiety medicine. I've never taken any mind altering drugs so this is a big step for me. My oldest dog is 17 and he is my ESA so it will be very hard for me without him. I got him after my mother passed away which was four months after the FDA showed up at my house. Thank you for your advice