I suffer really badly with anxiety

this in turn leads to getting stressed about something months and months before it happens

so i'll here say in january.. I don't know, in october or november of this year, you're going to get to do what you always wanted to do- fly to california!

at the moment I hear it i'll be extremely anxious and just shut down even though the actual thing's not for at least 6 months

it's horrible, and when you're asked why are you shaking, why are you crying, you can imagine the reaction of someone when you say i'm worried about something that's happening 6 months from now